Sunday, October 21, 2012

Time flying by

a monh has gone by and i have so much to blog about.

at the beginning life was so overwhelming ... now, am slowly getting the hang of it - being a mom.

I hope i can still remember the issues that i want to blog about but unsure when i can start ... really start. 

soon ...

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Tetiba teringat ...

~ autumn in Kyoto

~ winter in Mekah, London & Karachi

~ summer in Singapore

~ spring in Guangzhou

~ rainy season in Kota Bharu

fond memories ....

Wednesday, August 29, 2012


feeling a wee bit lonely ... *sigh*


oh well ... life goes on, kan?

Saturday, August 18, 2012

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri!
Mohon Maaf Zahir & Batin atas semua salah & silap sya. 
Semoga semua dapat beraya dengan keluarga tersayang :)

Friday, August 10, 2012

petua2 lain utk batuk

untuk batuk:

* minum kicap + limau nipis

* minum limau nipis + madu

* sapu kapur masak pd leher & dada

yg ni mujarab juga. tried & tested for years.

ambik limau nipis, belah/kerat ditengah tapi jgn putus.
calit sedikit kapur masak pd isi limau, kapit limau & bakar atas api hingga kulitnya hangus. sejukkan sebentar. perahkan air limaunya, berselawat beberapa kali & minum.

*warning, minum selepas makan, jgn perut kosong.

cuba beberapa kali, insyaAllah sembuh batuk.

an ex-maid gave this tip. sya batuk sampai hilang suara. buat petua ni 2-3x terus baik & dapat suara balik.

lemme see ... tahu petua ni sejak bila ye ... 1996 i think. really works!

petua mengubat batuk

... datangnya dari dapur je.

kunyah buah pelaga!

abg sya duk batuk bg nak rak. ubat doctor & OTC meds memang tak pernah mujarab.

bibik yg bg petua ni.

after 1 night kunyah buah pelaga, esoknya terus sembuh.

sampai tak perasan dah tak batuk.


Friday, July 20, 2012

Selamat Berpuasa

Selamat Beribadah

Selamat Segalanya,
Semoga Alla Menerima Ibadah Kita.

us at 27 weeks :)

yes, only me ;)

Saturday, July 7, 2012

it's an amazing experience ...

when hubby comes home, he hugs & kisses me and put one of his warm hand on my tummy, greeting our baby.

such bliss ... we're going to have a baby!


Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Gratitude II

Sya bersyukur Allah makbulkan doa kami untuk menimang cahayamata. Walaupun belum bersalin, pengalaman mengandung cukup mengharukan.

Baby is now kicking and 'responding' when i speak to him. It's an amazing experience!

Sya bersyukur sya dapat melalui pengalaman ini dgn hubby & parents sya. Abah Mama 1st time tgk an ultrasound scan pic. I am now waiting to give them their 1st experience of feeling their grandchild kicking in my tummy. Baby is still small so for now i am the only one able to feel him moving. Once he has grown abit more, taking up more space, only then his movements can be felt by others insyaAllah.

I am also happy that i still have my parents to support me, emotionally.

Hubby is also on cloud 9. I am so happy for him, for us too.

Now i'm in my 24th week. I pray that all will go well till the day i give birth & so on into the future that we have this baby in our life .... membesarkan anak kami bersama.

Syukur alhamdulillah!

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

makin lama makin malas nak menulis ...

blog-hopping je ...

fb browsing je ...

just an update:

i'm in my 23rd week. baby kuat bergerak. alhamdulillah.

i can also cook now.

since takde maid for a month ... byk juga exercise mengemas rumah & memasak. tolong2 my mum.

other than that ... my tummy's getting bigger for me to drive huhuhu

in short, we are ok, alhamdulillah :)

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Do we decide who we hurt today?

do we really wake up each day with an intention to hurt or harm someone?

maybe there are people like that ... but i don't do that.

if i have ever hurt you, believe me, it was unintentional.

i also believe no one ... none of my friends ... intend to hurt me or my feelings deliberately and if it happens, i am sure Allah has a lesson in store for both of us.

that being said, i can't help feeling sad when i lose friends over reasons which are beyond me.

in my head i wonder what have i done wrong? did i do any wrong? said hurtful things?

sometimes Allah shows me that it just wasn't meant to be ... we were meant to part ways for no obvious reasons.

whatever the reason or no reason, it always saddens me to lose or lost touch with a friend.

what makes me more sad is reading on FB, on an ex-friend's wall saying things like, or implying (or is it just me yg terasa) that i haven't been a good friend and better to part ways.

if i had ever done wrong, which i have no clue if i did till today, i still have to move on and accept it. but i wonder if it is fair to say only i made the mistake and bear the grunt of it all.

if the tables were turned ...

it is so easy to point a finger at someone and say 'you hurt me' without taking any accountability in your own actions.

honest friends ... real friends will fight, break up & find each other again ... even after years being apart. that is what i believe.

*nukilan hati seorang insan yg kecewa ...
Ya Allah, jika hambaMu ini sememangnya telah berniat jahat, ampunilah dosaku.

Monday, April 16, 2012

hari ni sya bersyukur

1. che sya (my grandpa) dah sihat skit. insyaAllah esok discaj dari hospital. maybe abah mama can come home soon.

2. walaupun mual, abdomen mcm tegang je hari ni ... sya masih boleh drive cari makan. takde mood nak masak or suruh bibik masak. selera bertukar - less of tempe. now nak nasi yg berempah - beryani, nasi tomato etc. mengada? maybe ;)

3. reconnected with a lost friend. 2 years + to get here, no more anger or sadness, just acceptance. sya akur dgn ketentuanNya.

i am happy. alhamdulillah :)

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

13th week



i'm now in my 13th week ....

1st trimester is over!

am so excited :)


Tuesday, April 10, 2012


everyday we  ... i pray for something that i want - something to get, happen or get rid of; someone to contact, see or forget; time to do something or go somewhere ... always. but i realise i ask more than taking time to feel bless with what i alrteady have.

of course, i always say alhamdulillah for this and that but honestly, not as much as asking for what i want.

so ... today, this very second, i would like to list a few things that i am grateful for.

syukur alhamdulillah for
1. parents who are well & healthy
2. a caring & loving husband
3. being pregnant & coming to my 2nd trimester
4. waking up to another beautiful rainy day
5. clarity and may i use it to good use.

it's a start ...

Monday, April 9, 2012



i'm now in my 13th week ....

1st trimester is over!

am so excited :)


Friday, April 6, 2012

reading back ... what an ungreatful person i am!

life is so much more meaningful when you focus on doing good than scrutinising what others are doing.

i regret my doings but i have also learned.

i hope to do better & be better the next second onwards.

it's sad when you try to be close but they just to busy to bother or feel that you're intruding.

i try to keep a regular connection with my brothers & their wives but many times my calls are unanswered or unreturned. text messages are the same.

i guess my asking of how they are are intrusive.

many a times i miss my brothers. at this age i want us to be closer but i feel they feel and think that i am just a busy body.

some nights i predict the future ....

when our parents are gone, we might never see each other again. live separate lives.

i try, i do but i am always misunderstood. that is why the last few years i have devoted my life to be by those who love me as i love them: hubby, my parents, my mother-inlaw, my hubby's sister & her family. i also try to give my love to my nephews as and when i see them which is not very often.

i think my brothers know that i am here for them but sadly i don't feel the same.

i wonder what the future holds ...

Thursday, April 5, 2012

ya Allah
dlm kesyukuranku
hatiku berduka
hanya kpdMu
kuserahkan kedukaan ini
mencari ketenangan dariMu

Wednesday, April 4, 2012

a very quiet day ....

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

abah & mama are still in pasir mas.

che's condition changed several times in the last few days between getting well and going into a sleep-like state.

mama says that he has been weak, eyes closed most of the time and eats/drinks very little.

until they are sure that he'll be ok, they'll still be by che's side.

he's in my prayers ... semuanya ketentuan Allah. semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusan che.

Friday, March 30, 2012

5.15 am
woke up to the sounds of thunder & heavy rain on a wet friday morning.

5.45 am
the rain has subsided but in a distance, thunders still reign.

i lay quietly, praying & hoping all will stop soon. may the sky clears up for my parents' flight home to kb to see my grandpa who is so unwell.

we pray that He shortens his suffering but also bless my father & grandpa to see one another for the last time.

may Allah also eases my father's pains.

as the rain subsides, i can't help but wonder if this is his last day. grandpa has been sick for 3 days. he's has lived 90+ strong years but in recent years, life has slowed down tremendously for him. being his obedient & loving son, my father has given his best to his father and without fail, visit him every month for the last 4 years. they are like 2 peas in a pod - close & loving father son relationship.

my tears have been flowing freely for the last 2 days with so many thoughts.

Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan Che & Abah. ampunilah dosa2 Che.


Monday, March 26, 2012

high-strung & exploding

for whatever reasons ... everybody seemed high-strung today.

mama & abah exchanged heated words.

mama & i disagreed on something.

i told my father off for just picking a fight with mama.

in the end ... abah & mama went out together.

i left with kak wan for giant shah alam.

when we all got home ... luckily everyone has cooled down.

kalau dak ... mau bertekak lagi ... ish!

everyone got up from the wrong side of the bed kut ...

Sunday, March 25, 2012


when should we start taking care of our parents? how do we take care of them?

i'm sure everyone would have their answers to these questions.

for me ... it starts the minute i can do things for them or help them.

all this while, i am so used to helping my mother with about everything that has to do with our duties as a wife.

early morning saturdays or sundays (maybe both), i would always take her to the market. a few times a week, i'd do her grocery shopping.

eversince i got pregnant, i've been banned from driving for reasons i really understand and appreciate.

but it breaks my heart to see her struggling going to the market by herself. well, she does bring a maid along but it's the driving that is tiring her. sometimes my dad helps and takes her there. sometimes so does my husband. but usually, it is always me.

i have two brothers who live apart from the family but occasionally come for a visit.

i dare admit, none of them ever offered to help our parents with anything. they're still the same spoiled kids who grew up into spoiled adult brats! oh, they do do things but only for themselves & their nucleus family.

i woke up this morning fuming mad.

my mother went to the market today. father drove her.

what i am angry about is ... my brothers know going to the market on weekends is a ritual. can't they offer to take her instead of being asked to?

i am really disappointed in them.

so this morning i started wondering when do we start taking care or helping our parents? definitely not only when they start being feeble!

Ya Allah, we are going to have a child now ... please help me raise him or her into a loving, caring & helpful child. aminn.

*memang sya patut tegur tapi takkan dah umur 35 & 37 nak kena beritahu?

** let's be a lil more considerate to our aging parents.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

am having an anxiety attack!

Sunday, March 18, 2012

"The ultimate test of a relationship (i think, all types under the umbrella) is to disagree but to hold hands." ~ Alendra Penny
i've been reading ...


oooh ... the things i learn when i read!


"How people treat you is their karma; how you react is yours."

~ Wayne Dyer

"Marriage, ultimately, is the practice of becoming passionate friends." ~ Harville Hendrix

Saturday, March 17, 2012

mama berjalan2 hari ni, baby :)

seronoknya dpt keluar rumah hari ni ...

1st stop - the hosp. been coughing & blocked nose for so long. so, went for a follow-up. doc bg inhaler pulak.

2nd stop - went for lunch to one of our fav spots, Rest.Jaring in sunway. they have lots of veggie dishes but the one i want, takde hari ni   :'(   huhuhu      (sayur tumis kucai)

3rd stop - went all the way to gombak to buy my mom's supply of haruan cream. i can't use it - kulit jadi gatal.

4th stop - our own home to rest. hubby slept most of the afternoon. i browsed thru my own lil library. oh, how i missed my books! brought a few (ehem!) back to parents' home :)

i have a curfew, mind you. i have to be home before maghrib.

so, second last stop - Rest.Syed for an early dinner of tosai.

last stop - parents' home by 7pm & still wide awake ....

Friday, March 16, 2012

larat pulak nak masak ... ayam masak merah sempoi berkacang peas, salad sempoi 'mat saleh' (hehehe daun salad, capsicum & carrot je) & roti tortila sekeping. dessert jambu batu 1/2 biji.
kena jaga gula ... lebihkan protein, veggie & fruit. alhamdulillah, rezeki utk lunch pd hari jumaat yg mulia. jemput makan ....

Wednesday, March 14, 2012

blissfully stuffed!

had an early lunch.

2 fried eggs with baked beans eaten with 2pc of wholemeal breads.

kenyang & puashati!

:) :)

Monday, March 12, 2012

simplicity ...

since i can't indulge much because of my diabetes problem, i find the simplest things make me happy.

for instance, today's dessert. 200ml warm lowfat milk with 1/2 tbspn of hershey's cocoa powder - nice, even without sugar. then, thinly sliced red gala apple lightly sprinkled with cinnamon powder - heady aroma, refreshing taste! and no sugar!

i am one happy mother-to-be :)

drowsy ...

doc gave me some cough syrup & runny nose tablet. both made me sleepy.

this morning i woke up in a face-down position (apa dlm Inggeris, huh? tidur meniarap) which i can never do since i got pregnant. baby marah & tak selesa.

after breakfast, i took another shot of cough syrup and plan not to take any more later.

baby has been really quiet.

drowsy too?

i hope baby is ok. usually, kalau tersalah duduk or baring, cepat je dia bgtahu sya, dia tak selesa. my lower left abdomen akan rasa tegang.

baby, mama harap baby ok. mama tak makan dah ubat batuk nanti. dah tak batuk sgt dah pun.

hope to feel you soon.

mama loves you!

Sunday, March 11, 2012

batuk kuat sgt ... terpaksa jumpa doctor n makan ubat. doc has reassured that the meds r safe for the baby ... but i just can't help worrying.

now i am drowsy.

looking forward to a good night sleep. i usually wake up 2-3 times feeling i've had enough sleep.

i really don't understand why ... anyway, good night! sweet dreams!
am i selfish to assume that we all make mistakes? yes, that would be selfish of me.


let me put it this way.

i made a mistake.

i make mistakes all the time.

people wrong me too but i get over it.

of course i get upset, mad & angry but then i get over it.

i made a mistake.

i am trying to ask for forgiveness.

but i am not being given a chance.

so what should i do?

let it go?

not that easy for me.

but, i know i have to let it go for now ....

when it resurfaces again ... maybe it'll be a better time to try again.

Ya Allah, help me get thru this.


baru sedar diri. it's not my part to expect ppl to forgive me or give me a chance to apologise. it's His to give when the time is right, if i will ever have the chance. sya berserah.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

chocolate almonds - i want both!

i am craving for chocolate. i love almonds.

if i buy the ones in store - they're sugary.

so my bright idea is ...

1. buy dark chocs - melt them.
2. coat roasted almonds in the liquid dark choc.
3. then sprinkle cocoa powder!
- NO ADDED sugar!

i have found a link on how to roast almonds ...

and another link on how to make the above. the original recipe calls for confectionary sugar ... u-huh, no can do. i want it as bitter as possible :D

can you feel my big smile hehehe

i hope this works!

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

My Kitchen Snippets: Green Onion and Cilantro Flat Bread

this looks easy ... makan dgn dhal or curry would be ok kan? maybe the flour i can substitute with wholemeal flour? i wonder ...

My Kitchen Snippets: Green Onion and Cilantro Flat Bread: I like this type of flat bread with curry. Normally I just get the readymade ones from Trader Joe’s but this time I try making it myself. I...

life - coming & going

it's amazing & bewildering too how some things have changed ... the ones you would expect to be happy with you, are not. the ones you never thought would give the time of day, surprises u.


i have to learn to let go of those who want to be free of me (i don't think i'm shackling anyone) and embrace the new ones or returning friends & acquaintences.

i don't blame anyone or even life. it is what it is ... we have different routes & journeys in our lives that brings us together or pushes us apart.

the key is to let go or embrace and see what life (He) has in store for u.

we are deliriously happy now and that matters the most.

Friday, March 2, 2012

hang in there, sya ...

i'm having problems with my sugar level ... the slightest carb that i eat will shoot up my reading.

i can't take more than 1/3 cup of rice. if i measure it at 1/2 cup, you can bet after 2 hrs, too high for comfort.

as high as it goes, i'm happy that i rarely go over 10.

in the past few weeks, my sugar has gone up more than that under special circumstances.

what is bothering me tonight is ... i'm been really tired the last few days due to my sugar. makan apa je, gula naik and i am forever hungry! i'm also having gastric and wind.

pls tell me this is normal when you're having babies? is it?

i am at the end of my witts!

tomorrow is my 'practical'.

my level of energy is so low ... i don't feel like doing it but i have to.

Ya Allah ... please give me the strength.

2 days of training at Taylor's U.

so tired ...
life can be really lonely sometimes ...

Monday, February 27, 2012

when you're really excited ... you forget.

now, when you're worried ... you regret.

all i can do now is ... pray.

hope what we have now ... will be alright.

aminn, dengan izin Allah.

Friday, February 24, 2012

sometimes, it is important to take a step back and not rush to conclusions when there could be so many reasons for the situation.

for the sake of my baby, i am taking a few steps back to breathe and let go.

i am giving the benefit of doubt that there can be more than meets the eyes why it is what it is.

sometimes, we are out of synch or just expecting too much.

so, i am taking a step ... a few steps back and wait.

yes, i know ... it is not always about me.

Ya Allah, tenangkanlah hatiku. aminn.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

Koleksi Zikir Munajat

miss abah & mama

at 3pm today, abah mama will be flying to Tanah Suci for their umrah.

they'll be away for 2 weeks.

the minute they left the house, i felt so lonely.

i think it's because i am so used to having them around.

knowing that they will be that far away just makes me weepy.

tengok zikir 'Ya Allah' on astro tadi pun made me weepy.

hmmm ... i miss my parents.

semoga abah mama selamat pergi & pulang, sihat & bertenaga mengerjakan umrah. aminn.

Tuesday, February 21, 2012


Kak Ija, thank you so much :)


Monday, February 20, 2012

life certainly looks different now. what used to matter, doesn't anymore. at the end of the day, i am happy. that is all that matters.

Sunday, February 19, 2012

i wonder when will come the day i stop facebooking. the things ppl post are getting weirder by the day.

i always thought of it as a tool to stay in touch but now it's a tool sprefing ones agenda and principles. it is still a tool of sharing but a less desired one for me. i need to go bavk to blogging.

facebook bores me.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

14 years into our marriage, on the day the world celebrates V-day, the day i still limp & nearly went for a leg xray, we found out that we are 7 weeks pregnant! Allah gives the best surprise when u least expected it. alhamdulillah!

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

my leg has not healed. after 6 days, some bruises formed on my left foot & calf. i can't walk normal yet.

now at demc for a check up.
my 1st bbq, our family's 1st bbq was a blast! i even made my own mint sauce! alhamdulillah, everybody enjoyed the bbq.

Saturday, February 11, 2012

bits of me

i am a bbq virgin.

jill of all trades, master of none but i still run a tight ship, at least in my opinion (yeah, right!).

Thursday, February 9, 2012

kaki kiri cramp 'simpul biawak'?

pulled a hamstring?

whatever it is called, sakitttttt!

alone at home.

hubby kena pi sabah @ sarawak today for 2D1N for a work trip.

sedihhh  ... and sakit!

Tuesday, February 7, 2012

kak ija :)

aslmkm kak ija :)

i just read your entry. tahniah buat kak nora! kalau akak contact dia, sampaikan salam & ucapan tahniah dari sya ye :)

latelt ni, weddings make me cry ... i wonder why? huhuhu


when i take a step back and observe ... there are times FB posts scare me. the things some ppl post & announce are enough to spark a kitchen fight, and a war!

more so the kinds which entwines you to have negative thoughts and join the bandwagon of bad-mouthing, criticising and condemning others.

preachers are abundance too but you can tell a difference between the really 'for the community' than the 'i'm better than you' kind of preachers.

i sit and stare at the screen and wonder ... when am i going to quit this FB?

Monday, February 6, 2012

2nd swim of the year ....

yeah, we know ... infrequent! hehehe

it's a start ... insyaAllah more to come.

some days are too tiring to even change into my 2-piece swimsuit - muslimah one, mind you!

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Tiang Islam

Rukun Islam ada lima (5) perkara :

(1) Mengucap dua kalimah syahadat

(2) Sembahyang lima waktu

(3) Berpuasa sebulan dalam bulan Ramadhan

(4) Menunaikan haji ke Baitullah (Mekah)

(5) Menunaikan zakat

Rukun Iman ada enam (6) perkara :

(1) Beriman kepada ALLAH SWT

(2) Beriman kepada Malaikat-malaikat

(3) Beriman kepada Kitab-kitab

(4) Beriman kepada Rasul-rasul

(5) Beriman kepada Hari Kiamat

(6) Beriman kepada Qada dan Qadar

Monday, January 30, 2012


tonight's our 1st swim for the new year :)

insyaAllah more to come.

sometimes we say too much ... both verbally and physically.

it's also tiring when you are constantly being misunderstood or you 'think' that you are.

i'm tired.

Sunday, January 29, 2012


blood test results are in ...

cholestrol low - wuhuuuu!

progestrone low - bummer!

estrogen very high compared to progestrone - not good

testosterone high - huh? double bummer!

in short ... hormone imbalance.

have to meet DM & DM soon for my meds. starting all over again with the hormone treatment.

Saturday, January 28, 2012

up again ...


i know what i should do.

but am doing the opppsite.


Friday, January 27, 2012

it's coming down ...

alhamdulillah ... blood sugar has come down to 5.9.

now i need it to come lower and maintained.

work hard sya! remember the complications you'd face if you don't control your sugar.

insyaAllah i will.


as i lay down to sleep
i close my eyes with a happy heart

a long lost friend
rekindling our friendship

fond memories
great laughter

brightens my heart
lifts my sorrows

i am happy
as i end my day

thank you, Z   :o) 

Thursday, January 26, 2012

he said 'thank you' on his own accord... alhamdulillah :)
it ain't easy when u're fbooking & blogging from an iphone ... lotsa lost in translation (in this case, typing)!

ipad or a tab? hmmm ....

Wednesday, January 25, 2012

sky high ...

went to see DM, fasting so that i can do my blood test.

he checked my sugar level.

at around 10am, the reading was 8.4!

he changed my meds and told me to come back on moday for the results. in the mean time, i am suppose to record my meals and take my meds.

what did i do then?

i went totally blank and then went totally crazy!

i became afraid to eat and at the same time i was so hungry.

i need to get a grip.

read up & take action, sya!

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

sugar high

sugar high ... dead exhausted :(

fatigue, blurred vision & slight headache setting in :(


so, this is how it feels like being sugar high:

dry mouth & very thirsty
frequent toilet visits
slight dizziness

utterly tired, exhausted & fatigue
limbs feel numb - slight tingles in the joints
slightly blurred vision

driving home was worrying ... what if i passed out? luckily i took my meds a lil earlier and am feeling a wee bit better.

but this is scary :(

Monday, January 23, 2012

are you happy?

i can answer 'yes' but why does my answer feels hollow?

am i really happy?

i wonder ....

Sunday, January 22, 2012

blood is thicker than water ... giving up your kidney would not even qualify you as family, that's the honest truth.
blood is thicker than water ... giving up your kidney would not even qualify you as one. that's the honest truth.

what i know for sure ...

when you are in sincere in helping or assisting someone (family, friends & even strangers), you become resentful and you treat that person like crap; you become rude, you belittle that person, you become spiteful and in the end ... you lose that person's respect and even love. your heart grows hard and cold. love seeps out and one day, you will wonder what happened. you become bitter and unhappy.

one of the source of happiness is giving sincerely, with no expectations of reward.

Saturday, January 21, 2012

bertahun berlalu
berumur lagi
kehilangan kian bertambah
bagaimana hendak dikembalikan

bertahun berlalu
berumur lagi
yang sudah biarlah sudah
jejak yang baru ke hadapan

bertahun berlalu
berumur lagi
dalam saku diguna
yang dikejar jangan dilupakan

semakin kita berumur, yang tercicir, kehilangan - biarkanlah. ada hikmahNya. perbaiki duniawi tapi kejarlah akhirat.
now that i have turned 39, it's a real shock to realise that i was once in my 20s. looking at hubby's niece who is 24 and remembered i was just a year older than her when i married her uncle. i was THAT young when i got married? would have i changed anything what i had known now? hmmm ...

kawan sya tanya ...

kawan sya tanya ... apa nak buat bila suami kata, i rimaslah dgn u! (dah nak masuk 20thn kawin, takde anak)

terkedu sya ....

ha'a ek ... apa nak buat, ye?

kesian kawan sya.

hmm .... any suggestions or ideas, anyone?

i admit ... it makes me think too.

Saturday, January 14, 2012

39 and counting ...

i have mixed feelings coming to this age ... 23 minutes to go before i turn 39. i feel like i am still 24.

yes, you read it right. i am 24 ;)

just kidding ... i am turning 39 at the stroke of midnight. can't do anything about that.

but what i am grateful for is that Allah has allowed me to live this long, alhamdulillah. i know i am still walking in the dark but i feel blessed that i am given another year (insyaAllah) to find my way to His Grace. i see signs and i will fight for a life of a good muslim, aminn.

i am thankful for a happy marriage. of course, we're like any other couples but what matters most is, at the end & beginning of the day, the last & first person i see is my husband by my side. i see, i touch and i love him.

as much as we have struggled, tried & failed again and again for a baby, i am blessed with babies -  my 3 adorable nephews. they are as close as to having my own. i feel so blessed!

i know. i know that i need to lose weight. no matter what, i am grateful for the body that i have. with it, i can take care of my husband, my family and his family; and friends & relatives.

i am happy that i can 'let go' of some things or issues in my life. what's the word ... mellowed down? it sure feels that way and it's a good feeling, nevertheless.

i am happy that i am able to take care of my parents, although they don't need much care yet. still strong and energetic.

the list can go on but as i end it here ... this very second ... i am a happy woman. alhamdulillah.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

i am trying to cut down on my caffiene intake.

i am trying and yet i failed.

just before blogging on this, the aroma seduced me and here i am with a cup.

and as i am writing this sentence, it dawned on me ... usaha tak menjadi kerana niat tak ikhlas!

hmm ...


Monday, January 9, 2012

alone ...

abang ke manila for a week.

parents ke yangoon for 5 days.

brothers are busy with own family.

sis-in law is busy with hers.

me ... am busy too but so bored!

haiisshhh ....

Sunday, January 8, 2012

sports massage

am at carlton holiday hotel & suite in section 13, shah alam. brought my mom to Oasis Spa for a massage. at 1st she only wanted foot relexology to test Tik. she is good. so now it is a whole body sports injury massage. for someone who has had 8 ops so far, this is really helping her. alhamdulillah we found a place for her to get a good massage.

if you ever need one, make an appointment at 0255188233. ask for Tik.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

why be with someone who mistakens your quirks aa nuisance when they're really signs of affection?
malam mendetik semakin tua
hati memerhati kesayuan menjelma

kerinduan mula mencengkam
berbeza hati berbeza tahap

kuluahkan inti namun tak difahami
kesayuan kerinduan bersama menemani hati yang sunyi

Monday, January 2, 2012

i don't have the confidence, energy and tenacity to do it anymore ... now i know.


Sunday, January 1, 2012

Karachi Kidnap - People & Power - Al Jazeera English

Karachi Kidnap - People & Power - Al Jazeera English

this is the man who saved my brother-inlaw. same surname but no family relation. please watch.