life

it's half past 4 and i'm still wondering what to do next.

hubby's coming home late, as usual but, from a meeting-cum-dinner thingy, which is unusual.

so, no cooking tonight.

a movie? or two? on my own? i can but don't feel like spending time alone. with a friend? nah, not in a chatting mood. i would really want hubby to come with me but just my wishful thinking.

dinner with my parents? maybe.

then what?

go home alone. wait for him to come home as i busy myself with chores or just watch tv.

whatever i'll be doing, i'm pretty sure i'll be alone ... like the past 12 years.

hey, this is not a complaint. it's the truth. i've become very accustomed to it but ...

feelings are still there.