when the time comes ...

when the time comes, your end is here.

since late 2010, too many deaths have happened among my family & friends.

tonight, a close friend's mom passed away after suffering uterus cancer for 8 years. al-fatihah. semoga roh mak ila dicucuri rahmat & ditempatkan bersama-sama yang beriman.

i can only imagine the pain & sadness she is going through but i know i will be as devastated when the time comes.

i cannot imagine life without my parents and i am forever finding the seconds to spend time with them, even just by a phonecall.

my eyes, heart & mind are wide open to the fact that they are getting older by the day. although i do not know when the time comes or who goes first (it might even be me), i try to be sincere as i spend the seconds, hours & days with them.

i see my brothers all caught up in their daily activities. i have reminded them but only time will guide them and hopefully it'll not be too late.

i read in someone's blog and it sounded like this:

there are seconds of the day where they do not enter your mind but when they are gone, you spend every waking moment wishing you had time to be with them.

if & when i find those words again, i will repost.

Ya Allah, ampunilah dosa-dosa kedua ibu bapaku. lindungilah mereka dari kejahatan & kesakitan. panjanglah umur & sihatlah tubuh badan kedua ibu bapaku.

aminn.


** 3.33pm
i was thinking to myself ... no matter how big or serious a fall out is, better to reconcile because the loss of a parent/s is nothing compared to the feeling of hate or anger.