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an update?

wow ...

i haven't blogged for quite some time , haven't i?

no special reason ... just didn't feel like it. altho, i do blog-hopped.





latest update:

22nd-25th July, my mom & i went to Guangzhou, China. will blog abt it soon.





on my mind:

should i go to karachi? leaving hubby & family for a week ... just to buy cotton materials for my business? of course, i should but i have a few probs about it.

1. am afraid to fly alone;
2. karachi is forever in a turmoil, i wonder if i am safe;
3. will i be imposing on my sil & her family with my 'business trip'?

the thought of flying alone is enough to cancel everything but the idea of shopping is strong too ... hehehe

such a dilemma!



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home sweet home ...

finally ... familiar ground & some stability.

time is ticking ... on the run again soon ... yup, starting tomorrow.

... i crave for stability! living out of a bag is getting to me ....

somuchtodobutstilltravelling

cuti-cuti

we're on a bus, Aeroline, to Singapore for a holiday till saturday then driving back to KB by car the next day. coming back to KL on the 29th.

cuti-cuti sblm dia start kerja baru.

i feel so bummed out ... literally!

sigh...

i am so happy with myself!

in our quest for a baby, we went thru 2 IUI cycles and failed. as heartbreaking as it is, one good thing came out of this. during both cycles, i'd stop drinking coffee, milo and tea. i only took ovaltine 'o' kosong.

now, i don't want any if those drinks. coca-cola also tastes weird. i still want some sweet drink but i don't crave it anymore. i can drink more plain water.

my aim now is to cut off all sugary drinks. i can do it!

swimming partner

yes, you read it right!

i have found my swimming partner!

she's my friend who is also a bidan & tukang urut.

i has a massage session with her yesterday afternoon and then we agreed to meet up for a  swim.

i was so exhausted, i was yawning as we swam hehehe

we weren't really swimming. my friend and her daughter do not how how to swim, i do but i haven't been swimming for the last 7 months.

so what we did was walking from one end to the other non-stop. halfway through i forgot how many laps we did but we were in the pool for 45minutes. i kept track of the time.

as tired and sleepy as i was, it was hard to fall asleep. it took awhile and i think i had a weird dream which i couldn't remember.

anyway ... it was a good start :o)

i plan to ask my friend to come again on saturday if our schedules are clear. we plan to swim together at least 2x a week and more.

yeay!

i just realised that i have given up so many things in my life.

where do i start, what should i do to be alive again?

where can i find 'me' again?

i hear a voice in my heart/mind ~~ start by losing weight. food is not the answer to my loneliness.

yes, it is not.

i want to feel good again. i do good by taking care of others and yet neglect my needs. i convinced myself that i was doing good but actually am not, for me & others too.

cepat lah ...

i wonder when he's going to give me back my camera.

i am eager to take pics of my cotton fabrics and start my online biz.

previous plan was to rent a booth at subang parade's weekend bazaar but astonishingly all tables were taken up within 4hrs after announcement :o(

my fault. i opened my email too late.

so, on to 2nd plan.

cepatla abang ... sya nak camera tuuuuu!