hmmm....
i'm hungry but am too lazy to cook tonight.
i wonder when hubby's gonna wake up from his nap.
got to wake him up ... i'm hungry.
jom keluar makan, abang. kena balik cepat. malam ni ada bola.
bangun la ...
Saturday, July 3, 2010
are you a Gleek?
Glee!
need i say more?
i think it is the best musical programme ever. most songs they sang are better than the originals.
i'm not a gleek but close enough.
their version of 'Hello', 'Beth' & 'Poker Face' are the best so far.
i've been told their album is out but i have yet to look for it & buy. youtube will suffice for now :o)
need i say more?
i think it is the best musical programme ever. most songs they sang are better than the originals.
i'm not a gleek but close enough.
their version of 'Hello', 'Beth' & 'Poker Face' are the best so far.
i've been told their album is out but i have yet to look for it & buy. youtube will suffice for now :o)
Friday, July 2, 2010
feel good time
it feels good to be blogging again.
i think i lost my mojo for quite some time now.
somehow, i think this time around i'm more open to what i write. honest, insyaAllah.
but, this will depend on many things on how i'll write in the future. well ... whatever it is, i intend to have fun blogging again.
i think i lost my mojo for quite some time now.
somehow, i think this time around i'm more open to what i write. honest, insyaAllah.
but, this will depend on many things on how i'll write in the future. well ... whatever it is, i intend to have fun blogging again.
demam bola
hai ... che abang singgah kedai mamak nak tgk bola. katanya tak sempat nak balik.
oklah abang ... selamat menonton.
saya ni tgh melancholic, sayu, rindu, keseorangan ... menunggu abang balik.
nanti balik ye masa half time :oP
oklah abang ... selamat menonton.
saya ni tgh melancholic, sayu, rindu, keseorangan ... menunggu abang balik.
nanti balik ye masa half time :oP
Maher Zain
i've been reading his name on fb quite often but never tried to find out much about him ... but that was before i heard his voice this morning.
i was at speedy's to buy dvds for my nephew and his album was being played. when i asked the sales girl who it was, then i fell in love with his voice (belum tgk rupa lagi hehehe). as a fellow blogger/fbooker comment, he is a hunk but i wasn't swayed by his looks. his voice and the lyrics were what touched my heart.
most of his songs brought tears to my eyes - it was his honesty in his songs. one song was like as if he was singing from my heart ... well, most of his songs. the whole album brought back all the emotions i felt when we were on our Haj, Allahuakbar!
these two songs affected me the most:
Thank you, Allah.
I was so far from you
Yet to me you were always so close
I wandered lost in the dark
I closed my eyes toward the signs
You put in my way
I walked everyday
Further and further away from you
Ooooo Allah, you brought me home
I thank You with every breath I take.
For the Rest of my Life
Ya Allah, jika melalui lagu2 Maher inilah yg membantu Sya bertaubat, berkatilah usaha kami, Ya Allah.
i was at speedy's to buy dvds for my nephew and his album was being played. when i asked the sales girl who it was, then i fell in love with his voice (belum tgk rupa lagi hehehe). as a fellow blogger/fbooker comment, he is a hunk but i wasn't swayed by his looks. his voice and the lyrics were what touched my heart.
most of his songs brought tears to my eyes - it was his honesty in his songs. one song was like as if he was singing from my heart ... well, most of his songs. the whole album brought back all the emotions i felt when we were on our Haj, Allahuakbar!
these two songs affected me the most:
Thank you, Allah.
I was so far from you
Yet to me you were always so close
I wandered lost in the dark
I closed my eyes toward the signs
You put in my way
I walked everyday
Further and further away from you
Ooooo Allah, you brought me home
I thank You with every breath I take.
Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.
I never thought about
All the things you have given to me
I never thanked you once
I was too proud to see the truth
And prostrate to you
Until I took the first step
And that’s when you opened the doors for me
Now Allah, I realized what I was missing
By being far from you.
Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.
Allah, I wanna thank You
I wanna thank you for all the things that you’ve done
You’ve done for me through all my years I’ve been lost
You guided me from all the ways that were wrong
And did you give me hope
O Allah, I wanna thank you
I wanna thank You for all the things that you’ve done
You’ve done for me through all my years I’ve been lost
You guided me from all the ways that were wrong
I wanna thank You for bringing me home
Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah
Alhamdulillah, Elhamdulillah
All praises to Allah, All praises to Allah.
For the Rest of my Life
I praise Allah for sending me you my love
You found me home and sail with me
And I`m here with you
Now let me let you know
You`ve opened my heart
I was always thinking that love was wrong
But everything was changed when you came along
OOOOO
And theres a couple words I want to say
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart
I feel so blessed when I think of you
And I ask Allah to bless all we do
You`re my wife and my friend and my strength
And I pray we`re together eternally
Now I find myself so strong
Everything changed when you came along
OOOO
And theres a couple word I want to say
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you. loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart now that you`re here
Infront of me I strongly feel love
And I have no doubt
And I`m singing loud that I`ll love you eternally
For the rest of my life
I`ll be with you
I`ll stay by your side honest and true
Till the end of my time
I`ll be loving you.loving you
For the rest of my life
Thru days and night
I`ll thank Allah for open my eyes
Now and forever I I`ll be there for you
I know that deep in my heart
Ya Allah, jika melalui lagu2 Maher inilah yg membantu Sya bertaubat, berkatilah usaha kami, Ya Allah.
Mama kata ...
1. kalau kita sayang mak kita, suami/isteri kita pun sayang mak dia. sayangilah mak dia seperti mak kita sendiri. tapi kalau dapat mertua yg susah untuk disayangi, banyaklah bersabar & layan baik kerana sayangkan suami.
2. ada kawan boleh datang setakat pagar aje, ada kawan boleh dibawak masuk ke dalam pagar tapi bukan dalam rumah, ada kawan yg boleh dibawa masuk ke dalam rumah. kepala sama warna tapi hati lain2. berhati2 bila berkawan.
moving on
my mother is a very indepedent woman. she does not need help or assistance unless she really needs it.
she taught me to be independent. to be comfortable to be alone. be brave to do things alone.
i do not find it intimidating to go to a movie or eating out at a posh restaurant alone. i like my own company.
i've been taught to feel comfortable with myself.
with that, i can honestly say, i seldom have one very best friend. i always have a few of very good friends and maybe 1 @ 2 who are abit closer than the rest.
in recent years, i've let someone to become sort of like a best friend.
we would call each other nearly every day, several times a day.
meet up at least once a week.
she would call me as early as 8am (hubby's not even off to work yet).
we became the bestest/closest of friends in the last 3-4 years ... than one day, she dumped me.
no warning, no words, no incidents that i can remember of what triggered it ... it just happened.
usually, she'll pick up my call or reply my text as soon as possible. but this time, she took her time. she didn't pick up & replied late.
at first i thought she wasn't well and i was worried.
after several attempts over several days, i had a gut feeling that she was angry with me but, WHY? what did i do?
i traced back our time together and can't find anything that i think can trigger this. what did i do? i asked that if i had hurt her, please tell me. i don't know what i have done to be treated this way.
i asked, i texted - and her reply was:
salam sya. we were at the movies. no worries la sya. its just that i dont feel like talking. banyak benda nak pikir. need some solitude.
at first i was ok with her reply. i said that once to her too. it was a difficult time for me and i couldn't talk, need some time alone. but i got back to her several hours after that.
with her, she became silent.
what could i do? i had to respect her wishes.
but as the days become weeks, i felt more confused. why is she shutting me out? what did i do to deserve this?
that was 6 months ago.
it still hurts. i am still upset, confused and lost.
i've asked and asked and she won't be honest with me.
alright. i have to move on.
it's painful because when u have a void in your heart, time & space where someone used to be most of the time. it feels like losing a part of you. yes, i was dumped.
i am moving on. i hope one day i will find out the truth.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
she did texted me on my bday, asking me out but i had to decline. i was prepped up for a D&C then. there were several smses after that but nothing has changed.
i called, she didn't pick up. smses & emails were our mode of communication.
move on, sya. learn your lesson.
if i had hurt in any way, i would like to make an honest apology. but i'd need to know what i did wrong. i also know things would still be different.
but why is she making me feel guilty? did i really do something wrong? if i did, then tell me. best friends or any friends for that matter will hurt one another at one point of time. but best friends should be able to work it out, don't they? if parting ways was on the cards, both parties should at least know why.
i'm still in the dark and dumped.
she taught me to be independent. to be comfortable to be alone. be brave to do things alone.
i do not find it intimidating to go to a movie or eating out at a posh restaurant alone. i like my own company.
i've been taught to feel comfortable with myself.
with that, i can honestly say, i seldom have one very best friend. i always have a few of very good friends and maybe 1 @ 2 who are abit closer than the rest.
in recent years, i've let someone to become sort of like a best friend.
we would call each other nearly every day, several times a day.
meet up at least once a week.
she would call me as early as 8am (hubby's not even off to work yet).
we became the bestest/closest of friends in the last 3-4 years ... than one day, she dumped me.
no warning, no words, no incidents that i can remember of what triggered it ... it just happened.
usually, she'll pick up my call or reply my text as soon as possible. but this time, she took her time. she didn't pick up & replied late.
at first i thought she wasn't well and i was worried.
after several attempts over several days, i had a gut feeling that she was angry with me but, WHY? what did i do?
i traced back our time together and can't find anything that i think can trigger this. what did i do? i asked that if i had hurt her, please tell me. i don't know what i have done to be treated this way.
i asked, i texted - and her reply was:
salam sya. we were at the movies. no worries la sya. its just that i dont feel like talking. banyak benda nak pikir. need some solitude.
at first i was ok with her reply. i said that once to her too. it was a difficult time for me and i couldn't talk, need some time alone. but i got back to her several hours after that.
with her, she became silent.
what could i do? i had to respect her wishes.
but as the days become weeks, i felt more confused. why is she shutting me out? what did i do to deserve this?
that was 6 months ago.
it still hurts. i am still upset, confused and lost.
i've asked and asked and she won't be honest with me.
alright. i have to move on.
it's painful because when u have a void in your heart, time & space where someone used to be most of the time. it feels like losing a part of you. yes, i was dumped.
i am moving on. i hope one day i will find out the truth.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
she did texted me on my bday, asking me out but i had to decline. i was prepped up for a D&C then. there were several smses after that but nothing has changed.
i called, she didn't pick up. smses & emails were our mode of communication.
move on, sya. learn your lesson.
if i had hurt in any way, i would like to make an honest apology. but i'd need to know what i did wrong. i also know things would still be different.
but why is she making me feel guilty? did i really do something wrong? if i did, then tell me. best friends or any friends for that matter will hurt one another at one point of time. but best friends should be able to work it out, don't they? if parting ways was on the cards, both parties should at least know why.
i'm still in the dark and dumped.
UK
i miss our time in UK.
we had a great time on that holiday. away from people we know. away from work pressures.
we walked alot. ride the bus alot.
we would have our tea at Marks & Spencer. a cup of mocha, a bottle of water, a set of scones & pikelets.
then a browse thru M&S' retail outlet.
actually, i miss him. we don't get to spend much time on a daily basis. he is so busy and i've made myself self-occupied too.
wish we were back in UK.
we had a great time on that holiday. away from people we know. away from work pressures.
we walked alot. ride the bus alot.
we would have our tea at Marks & Spencer. a cup of mocha, a bottle of water, a set of scones & pikelets.
then a browse thru M&S' retail outlet.
actually, i miss him. we don't get to spend much time on a daily basis. he is so busy and i've made myself self-occupied too.
wish we were back in UK.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
life
it's half past 4 and i'm still wondering what to do next.
hubby's coming home late, as usual but, from a meeting-cum-dinner thingy, which is unusual.
so, no cooking tonight.
a movie? or two? on my own? i can but don't feel like spending time alone. with a friend? nah, not in a chatting mood. i would really want hubby to come with me but just my wishful thinking.
dinner with my parents? maybe.
then what?
go home alone. wait for him to come home as i busy myself with chores or just watch tv.
whatever i'll be doing, i'm pretty sure i'll be alone ... like the past 12 years.
hey, this is not a complaint. it's the truth. i've become very accustomed to it but ...
feelings are still there.
hubby's coming home late, as usual but, from a meeting-cum-dinner thingy, which is unusual.
so, no cooking tonight.
a movie? or two? on my own? i can but don't feel like spending time alone. with a friend? nah, not in a chatting mood. i would really want hubby to come with me but just my wishful thinking.
dinner with my parents? maybe.
then what?
go home alone. wait for him to come home as i busy myself with chores or just watch tv.
whatever i'll be doing, i'm pretty sure i'll be alone ... like the past 12 years.
hey, this is not a complaint. it's the truth. i've become very accustomed to it but ...
feelings are still there.
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